Things I Haven't Told You Yet

I graduated with my MFA in Acting. From here on out, you may choose to call me Master Angela (or Mistress Angela? They never explained that) if you wish. Or you may choose not to do so. I won't be bothered either way.

I spent ten weeks with Phil this summer. Five in the UK, and five in the USA. We visited his parents. He helped me to pack up my Florida stuff and ship it to Connecticut. We went to Disney World. We visited my parents. We went to NYC, Cape Cod, and Martha's Vineyard. And we had an amazing time.

The best thing we did? Take our stuffed penguin son Hugsy (like the one Joey had on Friends) to the London Zoo. Best day of 2011... so far.

After he left, I was a mess. I started laying on the couch in my pajamas all day watching really questionable reality television. (I have not had a television in four years or cable for five years, so I have a lot of catching up to do... By the way, "Millionaire Matchmaker", "Say Yes to the Dress", and "What Not to Wear" have become my favorites.) It took me about a week of crying and moping before I decided it was time to stop.

In April, I had a showcase in NYC, and some agents were interested in meeting with me. I had meetings with a few people in May. I have a couple more to meet with, but they have proven difficult to track down.

Yes, I am officially living in Connecticut at the moment. A state in which I have very few ties. I am trying to see if I can make connections in NYC. I am also still trying to grab onto a white whale called Italian Citizenship so that I can be in London with Phil.

I got a job. I'm going through barista training at a small, very un-busy coffee shop. On my first day, I learned cappuccino, latte, mocha, cafe au lait, americano, smoothie, iced coffee, frozen coffee, chai, hot chocolate, tea, and various flavors and combos of all the previously listed drinks. It was a very long first day.

I've also been taking inventory for a store that's being liquidated. And I have to tell you, I LOVE that job. I love data work. I know it's weird for a person in a creative profession to like something that most people would find mind-numbing, repetitive, boring, tedious, etc. But I can't help it. I'm fantastic at it, and I thoroughly enjoy it. Sometimes it feels like it's the one thing in my life that I have easily under control.

I decided that I miss blogging. But I didn't know how to start again.

Most days I just feel overwhelmed and somewhat lost. I don't know how to prioritize.

Should I be focused on unpacking the 20+ boxes of stuff I had shipped from Florida? Because if I'm moving again (to NYC, or to London, or to LA, or to the antarctic) then what's the point?

Should I be focused on getting work in NYC? Because I have no plans to be there long term, so what's the point of establishing myself there? And am I wasting time, when I should be finding a way to get to London quicker, like an internship that starts in October?

But if I have an internship in London, then I'm not establishing myself as an actor at all, anywhere, and there are going to be gaps in my résumé when I try to act again.

And since I'm planning to act again in LA, maybe I should just go to LA now and stop worrying about London altogether. Phil will be in LA eventually... But can we really handle the 8 hour time zone difference in the meanwhile?

It's complicated.

Anyway. Hello again, blogging world.

Maybe I'll write you again some time.


May you always know what your next move should be.

~A~